Eventually I discovered my passion for people. More than anything I want to help; to give back. So I decided nursing might be the way to do that. Therefore, I decided to not go to New York, to stay in Utah, and attend a school about 25-30 minutes away from my home. And I have always been content with this idea.
However, now there is all this talk of my peers moving away from home and going to college in a different city, a different state, and even a different country. I promise I am happy for them, but at the same time, there's a part of me that wishes I was joining them. Not because I'm sick of my family or anything (Heavens no, I love my family SO much!), but because I want an adventure. I need an adventure. And maybe this is a mid-life crisis sort of thing, and it will pass (though fingers crossed this isn't the middle of my life), but right now? I want the new environment, the new faces, and the new life lessons.
I absolutely love the movie, 'You've Got Mail' and I can identify with Meg Ryan's speech in which she says, Sometimes I wonder about my life. I lead a small life. Well, not small, but circumscribed. And sometimes I wonder, do I do it because I like it, or because I haven't been brave?
I think I know the answer to that question. However, the idea of working in a little bookstore and coming home to the love of my life in a small apartment in New York City doesn't sound that bad to me. But maybe I'm in love with the movie rather than reality. I don't know.
But I do know that I'm going to work hard, love my job, and love my life. I will not settle. And then maybe just maybe... actually I'm not sure how to finish this sentence. Maybe just maybe... at the end of the day I'll be happy with my life...? Okay, that works for me:)