Ever since I was little...

... I wanted to attend the Tische School for the Arts, a sub-college apart of New York University. There, I wanted to pursue a career in singing, acting and dancing and become the next Sutton Foster while following in the footsteps of Barbra Streisand. However, when I realized I wasn't talented enough (harsh but true), I gave up on that dream. And for a while, I had no idea what I wanted to do or who I wanted to be. And for a long time, that scared me.

Eventually I discovered my passion for people. More than anything I want to help; to give back. So I decided nursing might be the way to do that. Therefore, I decided to not go to New York, to stay in Utah, and attend a school about 25-30 minutes away from my home. And I have always been content with this idea.

However, now there is all this talk of my peers moving away from home and going to college in a different city, a different state, and even a different country. I promise I am happy for them, but at the same time, there's a part of me that wishes I was joining them. Not because I'm sick of my family or anything (Heavens no, I love my family SO much!), but because I want an adventure. I need an adventure. And maybe this is a mid-life crisis sort of thing, and it will pass (though fingers crossed this isn't the middle of my life), but right now? I want the new environment, the new faces, and the new life lessons.

I absolutely love the movie, 'You've Got Mail' and I can identify with Meg Ryan's speech in which she says, Sometimes I wonder about my life. I lead a small life. Well, not small, but circumscribed. And sometimes I wonder, do I do it because I like it, or because I haven't been brave?

I think I know the answer to that question. However, the idea of working in a little bookstore and coming home to the love of my life in a small apartment in New York City doesn't sound that bad to me. But maybe I'm in love with the movie rather than reality. I don't know.

But I do know that I'm going to work hard, love my job, and love my life. I will not settle. And then maybe just maybe... actually I'm not sure how to finish this sentence. Maybe just maybe... at the end of the day I'll be happy with my life...? Okay, that works for me:)

mark your calendars....

no, this is not the standard poster for the concert because i didn't win. again. but don't worry. im not bitter...

Mark your calendars! April 28th and 29th!!!! THS Auditorim!!! $4 or $5!!! It's going to be so worth it!!! Okay enough with the exclamation points... This is my last concert at Timpview so I'm going to make it the best it can be by giving it my ALL. We have been working our tails off since January so basically, it's going to be rippin' rad. (Not to sound braggy or anything...)

Be there. Or be square.

ps squares are lame so... i wouldn't be one if i were you.

keys keys keys. keys on van nuys.

Last night I made a late, unexpected, though very much needed, Farr's run. This is a cozy little ice cream and frozen yogurt shop about 30 minutes away from my abode. It was a lovely, little adventure where I was able to enjoy my Honeyberry yogurt along with strawberries, kiwis, passion fruit juice balls, yogurt covered raisins, and two animal cracker concoction.

When the night was coming to a close, I searched my purse for my keys and was about to say 'goodbye' when I realized they weren't in my purse after all... After several frantic searches through my purse and a visit back to Farr's to retrace my steps, I ended up calling my mama who then came up to rescue me with her set of keys.

Sorry for the trouble Mama, but thank you for not leaving me outside the ice cream shop and therefore, saving my life! I owe you big time!

Love, Sasha Beth

ps. in my purse was a camera. as i was turfing things out, in search for the lost keys, i gave a couple things to curtis to hold-- the camera included. and so, evidently, part of this traumatic episode was recorded. literally.

and that's it.

This is, My Decree to be Kind:


No, it's not a part of the challenge, I just feel that this is important. Because more than anything, I want to be a kind person. Don't you?

And that's it. Just to be kind.

1. I will no longer be putting myself first. That's lame and rude and it's not just all about me.

Al and Chris

This is Chris.
And I am Al.
We are buddies.
Girlie twirlie, thanks for always bein there for me.
You are absolutely wonderful.
"Togethersss foreversss."
Ah good times.
Sincerely,
Al Pal

day 2: love

It has been brought to my attention that I am sounding quite negative. So... I think it is time for day 2: love. Here are just a few things I am happy about right this very second...

• my fam bam. they're rad.
• my friends. friends are rad too.
• my baby blanket. i've slept with it ever since i was baby. bet you didn't see that one coming.
• anthropologie
• 2010
• agua
• bath and body works' lip gloss
• aroma therapy socks
• my microwave
• home made greeting cards
• hugs and kisses
• leggings
• adele. i seriously cannot get enough of Adele21 right now.
• disney princesses
• choir
• kind drivers
• red lipstick

See? The list could go on and on. I promise I am not a Debbie downer. There is happiness in my life. And I hope there is in yours too!

And with that, I hope you have a lovey evening.

Au Revoir!

life is full of surprises.

2 months ago tomorrow was the best birthday of my life. In fact, I think I said that in my birthday post. I don't know why it was so amazing but it truly was. It was joyous and warm and loving and I couldn't have asked for better or more caring family and friends. And yet, a mere 58 days later, so much has changed.


Don't you worry, I still have an amazing family and amazing friends. But a lot of things are different. And that's okay, life is full of changes. But I don't like that life is full of surprises. You see, I didn't exactly see it coming.

But I should have.

One of the most important things I have learned from this, thus far, is to not take anything for granted. I have done that way to much in my life. And thinking about it pains me. If I could, I would rewind. But unfortunately, I cannot. So I say to you, sweet reader of mine, don't do what I have done. And if you have, or if you do, join me in changing the habit and maybe just maybe we will be able to see the blue skies once again.

I love you.
I love you all.
Thank you.
Sasha Beth xxx

ps. favorite song at the moment? someone like you off adele's new album. take a look at the link on the side. i can't stop listening to it. i can't tell if it's doing more harm than help for me at the moment but right now, i do not care. it's beautiful. and beauty is worth it to me.

Day 1: Hate

Okay so this is kind of a sad first post to start with because then y'all will think I'm a hater. But I'd like to think that I am not. However, I've been trying to decide what to write here and it's a little bit difficult considering I can't differentiate between the things I hate and my pet peeves. Because I think they are different. However, perhaps I am wrong. So I think I shall simply make a short list of pet peeves/hate... stuff. And you can decide which is which.

• road rage
• thiefing (yes, theifing, not theives. because i don't necessarily hate the people, more so just their actions... but sometimes the person.)
• whole milk
• drama (not theater, drama. ya know, like in the real world.)
• stubbed toes
• nails on a chalkboard (classic.)
• dead batteries
• cheap commercials
• toe nails
• screamo music
• donuts (both the food and the driving trick.)
• hang nails
• peer authority
• sarcasm (moderation is best.)
• not being able to decide what to eat
• loud nose blowers
• know-it-alls
• school (yeah, i have a bad case of senioritis right now.)
• chapped lips

And that is all. Well, probably not all but a huge amount, don't you think? Goodness, I sound like such a grumpy pessimist but I try not to be, honest.

Anyway. Stay tuned for day 2! It's a happy one, I promise.

and this is what one must resort to when one has writer's block.

I'm about to be completely and totally 100% cliche here and do a... 30 day blog challenge. Or maybe 15 or 20. I can't decide how long I want to do it for because I can't make decisions but I'm gonna do it. A few of the blogs I follow have done this recently and I love it. I love how open and honest they all are. So that is what I am going to do. And some of the subjects will require me to be extremely raw and vulnerable but sometimes that can be good for the soul. Maybe.

But before I start this challenge, enjoy this link.
I am currently obsessed with this cover of Toxic by Yael Naim.
click HERE for 4 minutes and 34 seconds of sweetness... if you so desire.

3/5/11

I really want to go run in the rain. However, I have two problems. First: I have to do my financial literacy homework and second: it is not raining. That creates a bit of a problem. So I will do neither and instead, watch Survivor with Dano and my Paps while looking forward to a girls night out with my sisters. Dano's never been to Comedy Sportz and Keke and I nearly spontaneously combust each time we've been so we think this will be a good experience for her. Yes, yes we do.